I sit...on that swing of ours. And rock back and forth while the rain pours down. My toes sink into the wet sand as I close my eyes and let the rain patter on my face. I smile.
It's odd. I've let go. But why do you still haunt me. Underneath the heavy rain, I can smell your scent...that used to be so close. The swing slows down. I see your smile flash in the distance; your arms hold me from behind.
It all slowly sinks in. And I take up the memories that I had cast in the dark...so long ago. My shadow always catches up, creeping on me from behind. That slow agony. You can't reverse time. And the swing stops.
I'm losing you. And it scares me. I know your face, I know you...but do I know you? They all slip away. The happy. The sad. They all flow into the river as the rain washes them out. I swim for them. But end up drowning. I cough up blood on the edge. Heartbeat races. I swing up to the sky. Where are you....
And in midair. I jump off the swing. I fly free under the stormy clouds as the rain stings my face. The seconds expand into an infinite moment as I float in space in peace. I smile.
But gravity takes hold and shuts me down. I tumble and crash. Concrete hits hard. The slow accelerates into a wall. Impenetrable. And I just lay there. Broken.
But...I'll smile for you. Cause I've always smiled. I'll always smile.
As my heart slowly bleeds dripping blood behind me.
