"We'll never fall, for you I will always wait" -- Kidnap Kid, So Close

I used to be able to mend
broken words
and shattered feelings

how is it that
I have forgotten
I have lost
this
one thing I could do?

“There are no beautiful surfaces without a terrible depth.” — Friedrich Nietzsche

the day folds and bends
shimmering in the moment from afar
vanishing from your fingers

ephemeral
those hazy days when I wish I were the wind that waves softly goodbye and follows the air wherever whenever
to a perhaps, to a perhaps

pools of thought drip from dreaming clouds
leaking into minds wasting away starved in the hidden

is it love that we die for to fill the emptiness in our wandering souls
to find that the only lover we have
is death himself

nothing in this world is sure
but the trees keep growing
and this world keeps spinning
as if it has a purpose
a reason to

on and on it runs
with no thought
to hold its breath for at least a minute

“Even as I hold you, I am letting you go.” — Alice Walker

away
you spin from me
red string like water slipping between fingers
further stretched and it's cut

but your scent still lingers on my shirt

"Intro" - The XX

glowing ashes,
dying
the inferno rumbles
from beneath
charcoaled faces paired with water brimmed eyes
these are the bridges I burned
burning skin till charred and cracked
singing hearts
we rise with the smoke, twirling, twirling
we rise like liquid fire

"Been trying so hard not to let it show, but you got me feeling like I'm stepping on buildings, cars and boats. I swear I could touch the sky" - Afrojack

And in that moment

the wind rushed through me
till the stars lit one by one in brilliant showers
searing through indigo 

In one step 

my emotions were free and my heart was running 

I could touch the corners of clouds

And in your smile 

I had the world in my hands

"To the ambiguous you: I love you but you'll never know. You shouldn't know."

Like light
we flicker
in pulses
of the heart
breaking
bending sparks
that ignite

grab
pull at words to say
to explain
with nothing escaping our lips
except tender kisses
quivering with slight hesitation
my breath caught in fear
falling
falling

we fall
so close
and yet so far away

"You broke the glass to see the stars"

Humidity begins to thicken through the room as you gasp for air and I grasp for words
Sweat sticks on to my neck and slowly the night rolls in with the fog
descending down and down to embrace us
muffling
hotter
and higher
my arms and legs tangle into yours
and I can only feel your pulse
and your heart
and your hands
burning
I sink into you
surrendering to my thoughts and your lips
whatever they may say

"I loved you once"

And slowly 

Slowly 

The sunlight dims

And only pale drapes remain 

Becoming skeletons and ghosts of what was once before

"Providence" - Keith Merrill

music louder louder
fill my cup

till once again

i am numb
and unfeeling

"And at once I knew I was not magnificent. High above the highway aisle, I could see for miles, miles, miles" - Holocene

Alas spring,
the trees grow back and flowers shyly bloom once more
Alas the sun,
she wakes each morning slowly, slowly then all so fast
Alas the phoenix,
to burn and die only to rise again with new life

Alas,
us,
will we do so too?