"baby don't cry"

sometimes...i wonder if i'm the only one who cries under the night sky. alone.

"though i would hide it, he questions me 'is something bothering you?'''

I dreamt that I was running. Free. And it was. Amazing. I had never run that fast in my life. That exhilarating pace that never tires you down and you just keep running faster and faster under the vast night sky. That feeling wells up in you as you jump over obstacles. You race. Speed picks up dancing along with you. Jump to the trees and leap down. And each time lose yourself in the breathless journey.

"someday we'll watch the sun glow as it sets"

"I might be a shabby person who has never done anything for you

But today, I am singing this song just for you

Tonight, within those two eyes

and smile I can see the pains from protecting me

You and I together. It's just feels so right

Even though i bid you goodbye, to me this world is just you

You and I together, don't ever let go of my hands

even though i bid you goodbye, to me this world is just you "

 Today. He smiled. 

It was a smile of remembrance. A smile from a memory. Or perhaps an inside joke. The moment was rare...almost precious. His face normally gray, blank and desolate, a plain wall impossible to understand, shone out from under the rain..Cause today... the sun rays streamed out of the clouds. illuminating the treetops.

And I saw him smile.

"When I was 5 years old, my mom told me that happiness was the key to life. When I went to school, they asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up. I wrote down "happy." They told me I didn't understand the assignment, and I told them they didn't understand life. "

Happy...is such a fickle friend. But when he's with me, the day becomes so much brighter. It's almost tantalizing because I know that he'll go off and leave me someday. Without him, I'm always insecure and I always wonder when he's going to come back...will he ever come back? Maybe he has a restless heart so that's why he wanders off. Or does he get angry at me?
I saw a rainbow today. We were driving and I happened to look up...to see a brilliant huge rainbow smiling at me. I smiled back at the new year. I saw that rainbow again. Happy had knocked on my door to come home once again.

"you need to turn off the lights; do you want the world to end?"- Susan Lee

my hands warm up while i keep them wrapped around my mug of hot chocolate
the soft, fur blanket heats my toes
and behind me the intense blaze from the fire singes my back.
i snuggle with my pillow
and i see the world outside
filled with lights and snowflakes.

the world whizzes by and i can only see a blur of lights.
An amazing ride that makes my heart flutter.
it flies out to the sea into the night sky
and lands on a shimmering snowflake.
as it melts, those tears drip from your eyes
and the smile that once reigned
fades away.