"want to know where your heart is? watch where your mind goes when you daydream"

Silence. What is this? It's empty. The white void stares back at me while I search frantically around me. Then I see you in the distance, your back facing towards me. I can't see your face. I slump to the floor gazing but I don't feel anything. Why? Nothing? All I feel is the lonely emptiness as a soft melancholy hangs in the air around us.

"it's the beauty of friends. the beauty of smiles. as we grow together."

Quite true. Is it not? That magical bond you can make with someone through years of just being together. I think that...that essence is amazing. I've never had that deep kind of bond since I've always moved around, so now I always feel a bit left out or lonely because I don't really belong. It's always me that has to break bonds at home and barge into new ones in another place. It's..quite awkward. And I can't help but feel lost, because how can an outsider suddenly be included in that special bond that people have shared for so long? I can't help but ask myself...where do I belong? Wherever I go...those connections always fade...somehow someway. It's always so temporary.

I'll look at a group of people. And I see them smile. laugh. Like they're the best of friends and always will be. That simple spark they have between them is so lovely and intimidating. Lovely because it's kind for Time to have nurtured and loved them to let them become close. Intimidating because I know that I will never be part of that bond. Maybe for a second I will feel loved, but I know that deep inside, I'll never truly be apart of their inner world. I can just sit outside in the dark. by myself. confused about where i really belong.