"Missing someone who moved away hurts. Missing someone who died, hurts worse. But the thing that hurts the most, is missing someone you see everyday."

It's that feeling when you're all flustered.
when you can't look at at that person in the eye
but you want to.

when you do, a light shimmers in yourself

and you can't help but smile softly

so as time passes by, don't wave and let it go...catch it

yiruma~

"sandwhich at first sight"

the pen
lays on the paper
like a picture
perfect
the light softly cascades down
and illuminates the side
black and white
as the pages dance with the wind
and the story sings through the air

"If you live to be a hundred, I want to live to be a hundred minus one day, so I never have to live without you."-winnie the pooh

You kept saying sorry over and over again.
why?
I didn't understand...but I kept smiling through the phone. laughing. it's all right I say.
I hear your voice break and your low tones fill my head while you talk

once the call ends, all I can think about is your voice over and over again.

"If you love her, let her go. If she comes back to you, she's yours. If she doesn't, then it was never meant to be."- ruochen

did you know you make me smile?

but that's a secret

shhh. softly, quietly, take my hand.

happy birthday arizona

:]

"as time rolls on, people get more beautiful."-s L

just because i'm busy doesn't mean i don't love you.
just because i smile doesn't mean that i'll never cry.
but know that the setting sun will always rise the next day.
so stay for just a little longer
and walk with me,
as love dances ahead in front of us~ 

(inspired by father nick)

11:11 make a wish

"afterlife'll be fun
I'll be like WHAT UP G-----SUS
and he'll be like WHAT UP BRO HOME DAWG
yeah"

 the waves of sound wash over you. filling up your heart and calming your soul. Watch as he plays. Swaying to the phrases of musical sentences that float off the page. His heart sings to you as he smiles with the notes. Feel the passion that radiates from his glowing skin. Free, in his own world, that he is trying to convey to you alone. Jubilant and majestic, he marches on melting into a sweet tune. Dance because he is with you. Let the melody overwhelm as the emotion intensifies. into pain. and sorrow. The expression changes into a despairing face. Let the tears overflow. Those memories the author wrote so long ago revive through...him. Faster. Accelerate from blue to firey red. Flame and hate. The hurt and excruciating agony in the nights explode. Under the same stars... accelerate and...
slow down. The air cools so walk with me as time slows to a tired pace. And he remembers as he opens his eyes. The waves wash back and the smile returns but with a touch of tears...sadness echoing in his sound.

stay still. And listen. While the grandfather plays his haunting melody of sorrow.

"get into your shell and just clam down" -terrance cao

It floats superficially and fools the world. I sit on the other end where the sun sets and in the morning I can only catch a glimpse. Slowly building up and ebbing away, my emotions crash with the tide. Close your eyes and listen. Those memories will start whispering to you. Regret walks and sits near smiling with her dancing eyes as the chill sinks in; the warmth is too far away from me now. My voice gets lost in the sounds of the waves as I look back and desperately try to grab for the stars. Outlining, but never getting the whole picture. Scared. Of what? I only know too well...

Those footprints of mine slowly wash away with the breaking waves

"you made me smile a lot. never cry tho"

I sit...on that swing of ours. And rock back and forth while the rain pours down. My toes sink into the wet sand as I close my eyes and let the rain patter on my face. I smile.
It's odd. I've let go. But why do you still haunt me. Underneath the heavy rain, I can smell your scent...that used to be so close. The swing slows down. I see your smile flash in the distance; your arms hold me from behind.
It all slowly sinks in. And I take up the memories that I had cast in the dark...so long ago. My shadow always catches up, creeping on me from behind. That slow agony. You can't reverse time. And the swing stops.
I'm losing you. And it scares me. I know your face, I know you...but do I know you? They all slip away. The happy. The sad. They all flow into the river as the rain washes them out. I swim for them. But end up drowning. I cough up blood on the edge. Heartbeat races. I swing up to the sky. Where are you....

And in midair. I jump off the swing. I fly free under the stormy clouds as the rain stings my face. The seconds expand into an infinite moment as I float in space in peace. I smile.
But gravity takes hold and shuts me down. I tumble and crash. Concrete hits hard. The slow accelerates into a wall. Impenetrable. And I just lay there. Broken.
But...I'll smile for you. Cause I've always smiled. I'll always smile.
As my heart slowly bleeds dripping blood behind me.