"Do you know the type of love that overflows with happiness and you can't contain it as the exhilaration rushes through and you can't help but smile?"

The anxiety builds as we climb up. Louder and louder, the sounds clash together to make a grand noise that rings across the hall. But as the battle continues, a sweet melody rings above all and pierces each soul as the melody flows out and dances across the thin air. And I play in the midst of the sea. Rolling across hills and flying over oceans, we tell the story no one else can. One glance and the eyes meet; the energy sparks the air and the electric flashes jump alive. Into that fantasy world we enter and explore the new green with a small smile on our faces.

Thank you for this year. Meeting as strangers, we've become more than friends even though I don't talk to you much. Connected through the music, it's a feeling that's felt with the heart and can't be truly expressed with words. Thank you for those breathless moments when our eyes meet as we start a new phrase, thank you for your wisdom, and thank you for everything you have done to let me become closer to music. I love the way you smile at small things and when we play side by side; I'm going to miss that and your thoughts...but hopefully I'll see you around and we'll talk again. I hope you won't forget me, because I will never forget you. I wish the best for you future~

Thank you. Really.

"The sky is of an expressionless face that holds no answers. You’re probably hiding behind the clouds, you’re probably a star"- TOP

Imagine if you could fly to the air above you. The wide sky, and to the blue expanse. We'll stream through the clouds and burst into the open. And there we'll float free. Breathe with me and let the exhilaration pulse through your veins as the light streams out from the sun. And we'll fly higher into the sky, where no one has ever been.

Imagine if you could run with speed. Through the rainforest we'll power through. Jump above the trees and swing to the heavens. Let the air stream behind you and watch it swirl as you go. We'll race all day and with a running head start, we'll both jump off that cliff. Gravity will take over and let us fall. Let the exhilaration pulse through your body as you see the world flash by as you fall. Parallel to the massive waterfall, there's no bottom and we'll never crash. And we'll fall forever together.

"waving goodbye your young heart cries for you" -Casablancas

"i breathed in the thin cold air that stabbed at my lungs and dimly i felt my muscles ache. gasping, i looked around me and recognized nothing. i thought to myself i had to keep moving, but instead my face crumbled as those thoughts washed over me. my tears ran down as I realized that i would never be able to run away. and the dark night strangled and swallowed my figure."

I'm sure everyone gets the feeling that they're running nowhere. But that feeling is just so depressing sometimes. Because you're just....going nowhere no matter how badly you want to be at that other destination. Failure laughs at your face and slaps you. Despair grips you tightly.
Those desperate hearts of ours...what do they really want? Everyone would say love...but what is love? So many works center on love, but I don't think many know what it really is. Is it happy? I smile one moment and feel sad a moment later...but why do I keep smiling? It always feels as if I'm falling off the cliff and that I will have no future for me. Happy is quite fickle. It will come and go. And as I look back on those memories, they will always haunt me with the happy times I will never be able to go back to...and the mistakes I will never be able to fix.
I always have those moments when I laugh and I smile with the ones I love most dearly but once I turn away I feel so empty...just heart wrenching empty. Am I afraid that I'm going to lose them? Already I'm feeling more distant to those people as more and more start to just stare off and never talk to me again. That security I used to feel disintegrates so fast and I'm left alone in a barren world in my mind. Imaginary stories can only go so far. Maybe I'm just selfish...
I don't really know who I am. This bipolarity of mine is confusing me and whenever people ask me about myself, I don't know what to say. If I say anything I feel as if I'm lying because I could easily be another. I just show one side...or is this the same for everyone? I don't really know...then doesn't that mean society is fake? How artificial is this world of ours?
We toil to get to where? I see so many quietly take advantage of others while smiling at their faces. Is that ok? It's as if humans have never been honest ever...and will never be. Why do we feel the need to run in the first place? Running nowhere... we're always running nowhere.

"i realized too late that I had been loving you all this time"

i sit in the dark. and in the silence i can hear the faint sound of water dropping in the distance. lonely i stay. musing through my thoughts. until a hand reaches down and pulls me up and I see you. You smile at my dull eyes and take me to the light where the warm sun blinds me.

"There might be times when the strong winds come between us. Just don’t let go of that hand we are holding on to."

Sometimes I stare at that emptiness. On the other side I see nothing but white, but then again there's nothing here either. Blank. And the sun will rise and reflect off of the wall. That glass wall I want to break between us. Squinting, it gets hard for my eyes to keep looking at the glaring reflections while the colorful lights dance off the walls. In the shadows I sit next to you, but you never notice.

Quietly you sit with your back leaning on the glass. Thinking softly, you just sit there staring at the window as the sun sets. Your hand rests on the floor right next to me, and I reach out to touch it ever so slightly.

But my hand reaches only the cold wall...while your hand is on the other side. Though I can see you so clearly, I know I will never reach your heart and you will never see me. And that hand of yours will always rest there alone. The silence in our hearts fogs the glass wall. As night falls, you disappear.

And I wonder. How did I end up here?