toilet flush
on my cheeks
my heart
has sunk to my
stomach
I've come to fear
space in between my lines
too harsh
too harsh
on the body
to separate
this shape
retract
rejects food again
hurling
on my cheeks
out
like it doesn't want to
live force food
in and
tell her it won't
hurt
it won't hurt
it hurts to
I down
water to
drown
it